Saturday, March 24, 2012
Friday, March 23, 2012
seriously,action speaks louder then words
The story of my life
Sometimes i cry to sleep. dont know whats wrong with me this days.i just feel like there is something wrong that i wish i could let it out. im so sad that i miss being happy. i guess i could really fake a smile and be normal.i guess im myself a great actress. harhar.actually i dont know what i want.i just dont want to hurt anyone that i end up hurting myself and blaming others.i just dont know . its no point ,it makes my head hurts more , my heart feel as though i need to take a rest. haha. sometimes, i wish i can forget everything even myself. bahahaha memory lost gitu cause that is the only way to solve problems isnt? i can just start everything again, and everyone can start pretending and be normal again since i dont know anything and everything.besides,no one can be trusted,sometimes i dont even trust myslf. all those memories be it good or bad is forgotten. no point sharing our feelings with others cause they really dont bother and they will never know how you feel.sometimes i even wonder,do you even know?do we feel the same way?can you really sleep at night?am i really not important AT ALL?am only someone someone when you got no onw?i dont even know who am i to you? this are facts im going through it everyday thinking that i could get over it. thinking that everyday will be a better day hoping that things change for the better. thinking and hoping doesnt work anymore. i shall care less, never give in and be selfish. everyone has grown up differently, different family,different background,different parents...doesnt mean ur smiling your happy.doesnt mean you bring branded stuff you are rich. think about it, look at the whole picture. if someone really mean something to you prove it. if someone cried for you, youre just worthy.but heyyyyyyyy im 17 long way to go. thinking,8 years down the road,ill be the luckiest girl on earth. i know that there will be someone better then me,im always prepared. so its 2 am now,i really need to sleep.i really need a proper sleep soon. i think i have waste alot of time thinking. i swear ill be admitted to the hospital soon xD head hurts getting worse. how can i stop thinking? err , sometimes i dont blame myself. its you people!!! i wish i could be alone by myself everyday. why must we be born with feelings. why is there such thing as problem. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Sometimes i cry to sleep. dont know whats wrong with me this days.i just feel like there is something wrong that i wish i could let it out. im so sad that i miss being happy. i guess i could really fake a smile and be normal.i guess im myself a great actress. harhar.actually i dont know what i want.i just dont want to hurt anyone that i end up hurting myself and blaming others.i just dont know . its no point ,it makes my head hurts more , my heart feel as though i need to take a rest. haha. sometimes, i wish i can forget everything even myself. bahahaha memory lost gitu cause that is the only way to solve problems isnt? i can just start everything again, and everyone can start pretending and be normal again since i dont know anything and everything.besides,no one can be trusted,sometimes i dont even trust myslf. all those memories be it good or bad is forgotten. no point sharing our feelings with others cause they really dont bother and they will never know how you feel.sometimes i even wonder,do you even know?do we feel the same way?can you really sleep at night?am i really not important AT ALL?am only someone someone when you got no onw?i dont even know who am i to you? this are facts im going through it everyday thinking that i could get over it. thinking that everyday will be a better day hoping that things change for the better. thinking and hoping doesnt work anymore. i shall care less, never give in and be selfish. everyone has grown up differently, different family,different background,different parents...doesnt mean ur smiling your happy.doesnt mean you bring branded stuff you are rich. think about it, look at the whole picture. if someone really mean something to you prove it. if someone cried for you, youre just worthy.but heyyyyyyyy im 17 long way to go. thinking,8 years down the road,ill be the luckiest girl on earth. i know that there will be someone better then me,im always prepared. so its 2 am now,i really need to sleep.i really need a proper sleep soon. i think i have waste alot of time thinking. i swear ill be admitted to the hospital soon xD head hurts getting worse. how can i stop thinking? err , sometimes i dont blame myself. its you people!!! i wish i could be alone by myself everyday. why must we be born with feelings. why is there such thing as problem. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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