Random:)

Humans are weak. Because we get hurt easily,influenced easily. Maybe im wrong but I think humans just don’t think before they act don’t think before they say. Its not easy to pull someone towards you when you want them because they have choice. Its not easy to say something no matter how much you mean it. Its not easy to appreciate someone that appreciates you. Its not easy to love someone as much as you want that person to love you. We hope for this and that but hope is just hope  90 percent wont happen unless you really work hard. Some humans, still doesn’t learn, some humans take advantage some humans just live for fun. Some humans are just so fcuk up that they don’t give a fcuk about their lives. Some humans are just there for us to comment, criticise, hurt, scolded, but some, to praise, to love, to care. There are decisions, choices, rights and wrongs. But we can do it, with only two things, Heart, brain where you feel and when you think. God is fair but again we humans don’t deserve it cause they just want to say what they wanna say without thinking.  Yes, no one is perfect but be the perfect one. So think and listen to ur heart because right or wrong, neither way you still face the consequences so that is why people say look forward and move on! Wanna know what I feel towards people, lucky but don’t deserve. Do people even thank god when they woke up every morning? He gave life cause he give chances, each day you are wasting it, for what? But I don’t blame people cause its their life and its up to them. I learn a lesson, be yourself cause if you don’t, they will keep finding you. That’s good but the bad part is they don’t care. Worse they will think you don’t care. To me, I really blame myself for not showing how much I appreciate but deep down me, I really do and I think its better that I don’t tell cause im scared that I would take my words back, however whatever that is in my heart will stay, idont know, maybe I wont forget. No, I choose not to.Argh Ioveyoubutidontwant. But I love you very much. Arr.. should I, should I not. Forget?tried their best to help but speechless kan?you see,only I and myself can handle it. Hahaha.Forgive. ape nie. Waduh pening gue.aiseyman,bestie . So this human Nurul Amalia  very complicated. And ill be in any way cause I say yes, no, don’t know, very random, even in r/s. how sad my life could be, but im thankful to be where I am now cause or else I wont be confuse,depress, funny, haha.here I go again. Basically now 1.04am I couldn’t sleep thinking and thinking about what will happen next. You don’t know what to do ask me ill say I ALSO DON’T KNOW! See crazy rite, really a lot of things happening in my mind. You have no idea how im feeling rite now. See that’s why I cant make rite decision cause the next thing I will think of is what will they think about me, and blab la bla. So don’t be angry if I keep merajok, or maybe im too sensitive?no I like to hurt the people that has hurt me. I cant stop helping those people with sincere  no matter how much they hate me or I hate them cause I cant watch them hurt.? Ya rite everyone is a two face bitch trust me,so becareful. My answers to ur question can be frustrating sometimes irritating cause I would ask you to repeat it eventhough I understood once.. Im loud and annoying truly ask my bestfriends with you don’t believe. I talk to to myself sometimes cause im thinking.And when I think, I think both positive and negative, I love giving both negative and positive ideas. I hate the smell of smoke but I like the person cause most of them will tell you nott to smoke-.- I dance cause I think I can move to every beat.haaha who am I kidding. No, just that I am the only one in the whole family that dance others, nerd and sports.pfft. mixture of chinese 1 percent je, nenek cina ma. But father follow father what.and ya, belom mandi dah mkn mak selalu kate dasar cine memand dah keturunan nk buat ape?hah.My favourite word "pantat,Bacin,Chicken"but mostly pantat haha cause idk.pink is what i like but i like colurful except brown cause the colour makes me hungry as i will think of chocolate.haha hate dark chocolate,love candies!hahahaha.Now still thinking,thinking and thinking but im also waiting.^^. Fuh. I type a lot, you know why, I wanna make myself sleepy and forget what is in my mind now. But cannot so ill just continue crying , blaming myself and stop type after this,ILOVE??I KNOW,You know, they don’t know cause we are pretenders, correct, pfft.
(still waiting)

Love,Lyaa

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